Hi there, my friends!

It’s been a while now, and you all deserve a little explanation. Where have I been? What have I been doing? Why did I stop posting? Well, in short, life happened.

While in January I stayed super motivated and worked really hard towards my career change, February smashed my face with reality.

Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t a post about complaining about my current situation and asking for support. That’s not what this website is about. Here, I'm fully aware that changing career at 35 isn’t just roses and flowers; it takes both time and resources to accomplish.

In the current economic conditions, I consider myself extremely lucky to be able to leave work for 6 months to learn full-time and pursue my dream career. But at some point in your life, you need to log into your bank account, check your credit card statements, and have a tough talk with your partner. At this point in my life, it’s been 2 months of job search without success. Over hundreds of applications with overwhelming amounts of no answers.

It was time to secure some income and pay off some bills. And you deserve the truth because why else would you be reading this? I thought it would be easy. I could balance working, learning, and looking after my little ones at the same time. But I forgot that the day only has 24 hours. For the first time, I felt scared. Scared that my dedicated time for career change is over, and I won’t have the time or energy to learn late at night. Scared that I will forget everything I’ve learned and be back at square one.

Trust me, it’s not easy to share what you’re scared of, to show that you’re just a human being and things don’t always go as planned.

But if this blog is to help others, I need to be honest with you. Sometimes it’s tough. Sometimes you feel worthless. Sometimes imposter syndrome hits hard.

So, what have I actually been doing? Well, it was a mix of both. Lorry driving at nights and tailing/general building during the days. I reached out to everyone I’ve worked with in the past. I didn’t want to start a new job as that would mean full-time commitment and no time at all for my learning. I’m lucky enough to have amazing past partners, and I got a chance to work a little bit with both.

Flexibility is everything if you want to mix learning, work, and family. I think it’s a good time to shout out again to everyone who was always open to getting me to work.

Apart from that, I got involved in a commercial project, and I continued to learn. I did slow down; I won’t pretend it’s still the same pace as it was on the bootcamp. But please remember, it’s a marathon, not a sprint. The distance is too long, and the wind is opposite!

To everyone who is fighting every day to get into tech, I am with you. Stay strong! Good luck!